Thursday, July 26, 2007

food for thought...lamenting

In the previous post, i said i was contented with what i have... but is that really true? I often question myself over and over again. Ever since i went to Australia and study, i told myself i must learn to be contented. Be contented with life and what i have and not taking them for granted, shall learn to cherish all that i have.

But its human nature to have more wants in life, or am I just blaming it to "humans nature"? I tink a contented person is very happy and carefree, dun have to worry abt FAME , MONEY and STATUS. Wont be jealous or envious of what others have in life. No comparison will be made. When i say contented doesn't mean i am rich and dun need to work, it could be, i just work as a recep or a simple job which gives a decent pay to survive. Having the basic necessity, a shelter, food and love (family and friends). Dun have to worry how others look at me... look at the pay i'm drawing... it could be the case whereby someone is very rich but nvr happy, coz they are nvr contented, and these ppl tends to miss out the good things in life. The good human nature.

but having enough to survive appears to be sometimes insufficient coz we have WANTS. Example, i wan SHOPPING, i want to travel, i want this and that.. and almost everything! haha so when can i reach the stage of contentment?? of not wanting more than i need? will that take me forever??? Maybe becoz we are not contented, we tend to want to make more money... more and more money thinking that it can bring us loads of stuff (which is very true in many ways), but some stuff cannot be bought. sometimes with watever means that we try to make more money, we somehow lose out more, that is have lesser time for the ppl u love, or miss out certain things in life... we stop being caring, we tend to be selfish, or even go into gambling.

The sad thing is, we stop reflecting and take a step back to look at how we live, and stop appreciating the good things around us. we onli have one goal is to get more money (promotion, strike toto, etc) and we move on in life blindly, we start to live blindly. So may god bless me that i learn to be as contented as possible with life and be happy :)

Just doing some self reflection, i told myself i shd look fwd to the things i want to do and appreciate life... tink i'm going bongus... start to write nonsense hahaha

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

chirpy... cheery... contented

Well, for no reasons i'm feeling quite happy. I was not feeling fantastic this afternoon after the attachment at the shop. I did learn something new, but I think an attachment like that can be enhanced to become more effective in meeting the objectives. But somewhat, after my boyboy has touched down in Korea and gave me a call, he brightens up my day. I think a phone call and a smile from him does make a difference.

But what really cheers me up, is knowing the fact that he appreciates me and not taking me for granted. He knew that i've been feeling frustrated over wedding stuff and reno, he took over the job from me and try his very best to lighten my load. And today, on his msn nick it says "I m glad to have a nice wifey for the rest of my life... :) "

Well, i'm touched :) Partially because he said something like this.. and alvin being a very inexpressive person, he actually displays it as his msn nick, this means something to me. He is not a mushy person, or someone who can sweet talk, so by saying all these i know its from the bottom of his heart. I am not the best wife in the world, but at least in his eyes, i'm a good wife. Perhaps there is no flowers and wine, but he is always there for me. This wedding preparation once again brought us closer, and it actually made me realised how impt we are to each other.

Of coz, i can feel the difference of how he's been treating me... though no flowers and all.. he actualli made the effort to buy me my small items to make me happy... keke maybe you tink that i'm too easily contented but i'm happy this way... every small thing he buys makes me happy! My birds nest, SKII eye and face masks... haha etc... he wont spend on gf unnecessary... keke maybe my status is upgraded to wife soon.. so treatment is very different... and is for the better! yippee!

17th Tuesday
We've been rather busy last week, chosen our PS photos last tuesday, but i'm still making some changes here and there. So will most probably email tuckys the final chosen photos later this week. Rather tired and lazy to do it now.

20th Friday
It was rather peaceful, we didn't do much stuff. Alvin was on leave on friday, and he was so sweet to meet for lunch before he proceed to do all the reno stuf. To me, its not a given or must have, like what we say "Ying Gai De" in chinese. He is hardly around and we hardly have a chance to meet for lunch. Well, its an luxury to dine together.


We pretty much lead our own lives, yes we do. An example, we met for dinner, then we decided that we had nothing in common to do, so he went home to play his war craft while i went back to my own place to catch some tv series. But we still want to be together over the weekend, so he came over and we were watching soccer together. Yeah, so this is how much we treasure each other's company, and quality time. We dun need to be together 24/7, but we need quality attention from each other.

21 Sat
We went KTV with my sec sch friends after settling our furniture stuff. He was so tired, he fell aslp at the last hour of the session. We also collected our wedding invites! So friends, watch out the red bomb is coming your way very soon! I love the cream colour invite i've chosen, and the cutie boy and gal image he has chosen. I think it's very US.. we are like kids... boy and gal is getting married :)

22 Sun
Yesterday was exciting, we finally bought our first batch of household items! haha rice and such, we are preparing for our "shifting in ceremony" this coming saturday! Yeah our nest is up!!!!!! Okie okie... will get my house more ready.. then i will take photos okie? now it's still an empty shell!


23 Mon (today)
Well, everything is finally firmed up! We have filed out registry of marriage! keke... now its realli time to count down to our wedding day - 58 days! Time flies! my god!


Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Last week was a busy and fruitful week

How time flies, i have been feeling too tired to update my blog for last week. Everything happens too quickly but for a good reason.

Tuesday - 10th July
I met up with 2 of our Uni good old friends with the rest of the gals (wen and jing). Elaine just came back from England, and is back here for a short holiday and also to attend her god brother's wedding. We last saw her earlier this year, she is currently working in England-Reading and is based there. The meet up was fantastic! Another of our gal friend was there too, Valerie. Haven't seen her since we've graduated. This is like YEARS! I realli enjoy meeting up with friends whom I've not seen for a few mths, and especially so, for those who are not staying in Singapore. It just makes me feel good to know that they are all safe, well and happy. Both Valerie and Elaine are doing well in their own aspect, and i believe they really are enjoying what they are doing now. We took a group picture, using Elaine's professional camera, but I've yet to receive the photo from her. Will post it up when i received it. I think its been pretty long since we took a picture together. I promise, I will cherish it :)

Cheers to Friendship my dear gals!

Thursday - 12th July
Yes, we must have gone mad during the midst of preparing for our wedding. One of the Divine brides organised a dinner session for Divine brides who like to meet up. I really got to thank her, Stickymouse (lets not reveal the real name). She is a very sweet and kind lady, who looked extremely gorgeous in her wedding gown! WOW!!!! Well, of coz we have 4 other pretty brides/brides-to-be with us that day. Peri, BrightBride, WeddingGal and BBQueen. It's a pity, WhiteTwinkle couldn't join us as all of us were so looking forward to meet her and see her albums. I can feel her bubbly-ness by looking at the photos she sent us, she's very pretty and she has beautiful gowns. We all agreed to meet up again, most prob in Sticky's house next time if there is no violent objections, to share photos and videos. Hmm, all the pretty babes (not that i'm pretty, but they are) in Sticky's house... how cool! But guys out there, u can forget abt knowing them, all taken, as I've mentioned we are all BRIDES or BRIDES to be. Its amazing how much we can chat about the entire night, but its hard not to have awkward silence, coz we are still strangers though we chatted a fair bit in the forum, but the fact is we have never seen each other before. Anyhow, realli looking forward to see them again, they are a bunch of nice and sincere ladies.

Friday, 13th July
Oh yes, i hate friday the 13th. Kinda have this thought that bad things always happen to me on this day. But it didn't, our team building event went well. And i tink the morning and afternoon games played an important role to make the entire event a success. Not forgetting the Casino and night games, and most importantly the committee's effort, all of us played an important role, esp the designer (she did all the artwork herself) ! But the morning and afternoon games really met the objectives of TEAM BUILDING, night stuff are just more for leisure. Many feedback that they really enjoyed it, as a committee i tink that's what we want and hope to hear. Now that this team building is over, I got to clear my REAL work. Damm... so much back log... having work to do is good, but not stuff that i didnt clear last week. this is unhealthy!

Saturday, 14th July
Yes! Its the day I've been waiting for since months back. Jacky Cheung Concert! It was great, and amazing. I think he has grew so much over the years in terms of his performance and the way he talks to Singapore crowd! I can feel that, this is what he always wanted to do, its very different from his past concerts. There are many sections, ROCK , DANCE, CLASSIC, MUSICAL and his must-sing! I went mad during his concert! I stood up and dance, i was screaming like a 15 year old. I don't care how ppl looked at me. I decided that, if i don't do it now, i might not get a chance to do it again. Jacky is 46 years old, how many more years can he sing fast songs! The crowd stood and dance with him. It was so different compared to his previous concerts I went. i just want to say that, JACKY U'RE THE BEST!

Now my wish is, to watch him live in Hong Kong. Since young i always wanted to watch him live in Hong Kong. I believe its very different, and it will be much better! let's see if we will have extra money after the wedding. I heard his concert in Hong Kong is in Sep, so we can go after the wedding for a short honeymoon and to watch him! I'm a fan of his since i was 9. The so-called old Cantonese songs he sang during the concert (thinking that not many will know or heard of), i know them all and i sang along with him. He is just soooooo great! Amazing for an artiste to stay in this industry for 23 years and more, and is still so popular! okie enough abt him, i cant stop! He is the best!!!!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Simple weekend

I had a simple but happy weekend. My boy was lucky and i was lucky too, he does not have to stay in JB to work on Friday night, so he travelled back to SG just to have dinner with me :) then back to JB as he needs to work on Saturday.

On Saturday afternoon, we got luckier! He came back on Sat evening and left on Sunday night. Instead of me going over to JB for the weekend, he came back to Singapore and kept me accompanied. We did nothing much except accompanying each other. Just staying close to each other, the presence is sufficient to keep me contented the entire day. Went to his place for dinner and some durians, then meet up with his frens at serangoon for some bowling games and had supper together.

On Sunday, we just spent time lazing around each other. He played his warcraft, while i took a nap next to him. Haha... so "xiao nu ren", just enjoying every moment spent together. His sister was so kind, she prepared dinner for us! The meal was great and especially so when its prepared with mushroom soup! Ours favourite!

He supposed to be away for 12days, now i managed to steal 2 days from him, this makes me happy. And i supposed he feels happy too. I can see that he's happy with me around though i might be just sleeping like a pig every time he turn around and look at me, but i can feel it from him that he too feel contented with my presence.

Perhaps, this is one very important thing we share in common, appreciating each other's presence and feeling contented with the smallest things. Its always quite sad to tell people that we hardly share anything in common, besides mahjong, watching soccer, clubbing and... i duno wat. haha

He dislikes the things i enjoy, such as diving, wake boarding, bungy jumping etc. I love to do more of these sports, but he finds it too dangerous! I enjoy swimming and worshipping the sun (just that i'm trying to remain fair so that i look pretty in my gowns), he doesnt. I enjoy sleeping haha everyone knows it.. and he doesnt! He loves playing warcraft, soccer games, etc games and i DON'T! I tried picking up bowling so that we share something in common, but my interests faded off after a year... i still play once in a very BLUE moon.

Anyhow, the morale of the story is, a couple doesn't need to have the same interests to be together. Doesn't mean that the opposite attracts too. Its how you want it to work and how you work towards it. Of coz it takes both hands to clap :)

Thursday, July 5, 2007

feeling better :)

Humans are interesting characters... jealousy is born in them. now that i've voiced out my concerns i felt better, less disturbed and happier. so in this modern society, there are still many ppl with very traditional thinking. Man and woman are nvr equal and they cannot be equal. Man are mainly the people having more power, and this can't be changed. Revolutions... we cannot make man weaker, but we have proven that woman has become stronger. Oh well, i've decided and understand that i can't change the things that's been affecting my mood, but what i can change is the mood i want to be in. So i choose to be happy :)

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

moody

just feeling moody. only you understand and know how i felt. thanks dear for talking to me. life will be tough without you and i'm glad that i'm marrying you. perhaps there is nothing smooth in life, but i know with you by my side things can only get better. i never know it would have such impact on me, been trying to disguise my sadness, but i just have to let it out to feel better. Its only with you that i've shared this with and it shall remain this way. i always thought i'm important, but maybe i'm not, maybe i still is just that it has been expressed differently.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Sweet things...

Thoughts about keeping wedding gown
Mr Alvin has been very sweet... he has always discourage me to buy/keep my wedding gown coz we will have no space to store it and no chance to wear it again, definitely. But as we collected our gowns for the shoot that day, he took my hands and told me that if i really liked the gown and can't bear to part with it, i can keep it after the wedding.

This really comes as a surprise, coming out from my dearest mouth! The thought itself is already satisfying enough (though i still feel like keeping it...hehehe) but I've also always discouraged ppl to keep their gowns. Honestly what can you do with it? Yes, memories and all the sweet things that happened. But, we have photographers... and that's their job to keep our memories alive! Besides, we all have brains, so precious moments shd be kept safe and locked in a secured part of our brains... well easier said than done, I'm a gal too and getting more girly now, that's why i also want to keep the gown. But nothing is firmed.. i'm just listing out the possibilities.

Invitation Cards
We've finally went down to choose our invitation cards. I always wanted something different, but I've decided to go with something classy and simple. We've chosen a cute icon, boy and girl which represent us! haha! Wanted to choose a pair of pigs, but Muslim friends might not like to receive it...we are sensitive towards our guests' feelings.

Booking of JP
I shall call up the JP tomorrow and booked him for our solemnization! Its less than 3 months to the wedding and I've not booked him yet. We have finally came to a conclusion, we'll have our solemnization at 6pm. Hmm so i tink its abt time to call up the hotel and make the necessary arrangements.

"The Negotiation"
We are pretty cool, so are our families. We have left both parents to meet up on their own to discuss abt the wedding stuff... well they have met a few times so dun need us to be around. Everything went well :)